Forever Invictus

Last night Robert invited me to a “Cereal Brigade” I smiled “Andrew invited me to a “cereal brigade in writing once,” he said as he took his favorite cereal out of the cupboard. “Really? So Andrew,” I said, stopping what I was doing. “What did he write, how did he give it to you?” “You [...]

Dear Kukunaokala, On this day, one of the anniversaries that have followed the first of your beloved son Michael’s death, I want you to know that I am thinking of you. I think of the first time you “popped” up into my consciousness, commenting on one of my posts. I think of the days, weeks, [...]

Andrew’s funeral was two years ago today. I am not feeling well. I have not been feeling well for days and days and days. I feel as though this has only just happened, but with the accumulated grief of the last two years. I feel depressed. I struggle to start the day. But I do [...]

“Breathe,” I tell myself. “Breathe! You’ve been here before. Even if it looks pitch black, it isn’t. The light is there somewhere. Go on, look for it. Breathe, don’t be afraid.” I keep encouraging myself. To give in and just sleep … But, fuck, no! And I am not afraid to shout for help. If [...]

Thank you, thank you, thank you!

I am going to drive to the city around 4 a.m. tomorrow morning. In a few hours. Will I be able to intercept him this time?

I have deleted today’s post. Thank you to those who responded willing to help. The situation I wrote about is been taken care of. Love Esmeralda Andrew’s Mummy